A Whole Lotta Nuttin’


February 1, 2011 by Marj Hatzell

I’ve got nothing.

The past two weeks I’ve spent hours each day staring at this webpage, trying to figure out what to write. I’m not sure why.

It might be because my gig at The Stir is now up. It was a temp gig and the contract was up at the end of January. It was a fun ride and I’m glad I was asked to do it but I’m not a professional writer or anything so there’s that. Also? It’s much harder than you think, finding topics, pitching them, writing, supporting with facts.  I’m still gonna be at 5 Minutes for Special Needs on Fridays. And? I’m looking for a new gig. Because I love money and money is nice and the money from the Stir? Very Nice. But I don’t get paid for any of the other writing gigs that pop up here and there. Those are just for fun and stuff.

Speaking of writing and other places, I’m trying to figure out if I want to keep writing here. Here’s the thing. It’s fun. I like it when I interact with people. I like it when I can help people or give ’em a laugh or point a parent of a newly diagnosed child in the right direction. What I’m trying to figure out is if there is any benefit in me continuing to write about my experiences with my kids. Or if I need to scrap this blog altogether and start fresh. Like a new blog.

I mean, it’s not like I have that many followers (they are in the tens each day) or comments (less than ten each day). Switching wouldn’t be that hard. But then again, do I want to switch at all? Or give this up completely? My blog is all over the place. I write about whatever is on my mind. It has no focus. It has no mission. It has no point. I think the main reason I’ve lost so many folks is because it’s old and stale and it has been done before and there are plenty of new, funnier, energized people ready to take my place. People don’t want to keep hearing about the pantry contents being dumped on my floor, my kid smearing poo on the walls, my other one having meltdowns over groundhogs and the guy I live with not wanting to be mentioned at all. And the whole twitter/Facebook thing? Swear it killed off what few readers I had. And the few comments I had. There’s just too much info out there on the information highway and my little insignificant life is, well, insignificant.

What makes me so special? Nothing. Just a woman trying to find her way in this world, trying to raise her kids without going insane and attempting to figure out what she wants to be when she grows up.

And then there’s the fact that I’m not sure I want to keep doing it. I’m at a crossroads, of sorts. Do I play the game, join all of those networking websites, work my arse off on twitter and FB and get tons of followers and be one of those “mommy bloggers” you hear about? Do I want that? Or am I perfectly ok with being insignificant and unimportant me. Fading back into oblivion.

Of course, all of this wishy-washy-back-and-forth stuff could be from S.A.D. Or lack of nutrients. Or lack of sleep. Or my lingering ear infection and cold. Or the back issues and lack of getting out of the house and seeing sunshine on a regular basis. Or the crappy weather…


30 thoughts on “A Whole Lotta Nuttin’

  1. Viviane says:

    You are special to me. I would miss you a lot. But do what you feel you should do. Hoping this post is not the last one, and that you will feel better, what with spring coming, and also that (paying) gigs will come soon. Hugs.

  2. rockle says:

    I can’t help you with your writing gig problem, but maybe this will help: I get about 600 pageviews a month on my blog. I reckon that 550 of them are either (1) my mother or (2) my sisters or (3) me, checking for updates to the blogs in my blogroll. The rest are randos who find me via weird Google searches like “paranoia hypochnodria” and “actresses with bad hair.” I link on Twitter and occasionally on FB and I signed up for Networked Blogs but I couldn’t begin to tell you how it works because I don’t even.

    I keep writing on my blog because if I don’t my head will explode and I will lose what little there is left of my mind. Nobody cares about anything I have to say — sometimes not even ME, by the time I’m done with a post. But if I don’t get that stuff out of my head I’ll end up in the nuthouse, with the loons and the squirrels.

    I like reading your stuff. You make me laugh. You *are* one of my Fun Fab Five. If you don’t have this blog any more, I’ll cry — but if you go somewhere else, I will follow you. You complete me. (Okay, maybe THAT was a little bit over the top.) AND PLUS ALSO! I love your “About” page, it is honest to God the best thing on the internet, including all those keyboard cat videos.

  3. Erica says:

    Maybe it’s time to write a book?

  4. MemeGRL says:

    I almost didn’t come back after my bloggy hiatus. (Unintended, post computer crash.) I did it just to keep the family recipes (lame, lame, lame, I know, but oddly, some people follow). All to say: I’ll understand. But I’d be sad too. But you’d also be joining a bunch of early bloggity women I know who transformed their blogs in some way in the last year. Even the big bloggers are doing it (remember Rocks in my Dryer?). Keep us posted. (See what I did there? Bloggy humor? No wonder I have so few followers.)

    • You’re right. After seven or eight years of doing this (Ian was a baby, I think) I just need new ideas. I am going back to last week’s FB post and taking folks’ ideas and writing about what they asked for.

  5. joeinvegas says:

    Sorry if you go. Quite a few bloggers have stopped posting and moved to hourly sentences on Facebook. (or maybe Twitter tweets, don’t know, don’t do that one). At least here you can write as much as you want to and give us long stories, with photos. or no photos, better not to have visual indicators of poo strewn bathrooms.

  6. She Started It says:

    I’d miss you, too.

    I don’ think anything you write is old or stale. I think it’s more a function of the fact that 1.) There are a gazillion blogs out there– far too many for people to keep up with, and 2.) People would just rather follow writers they like on Facebook and Twitter.

    But I do hope you keep it up, if only for me!

  7. Say it ain’t so, Marj! Say it ain’t so. It’s hard to keep this up. Some days I wonder myself for my own blog and I’ve only been doing it for a less than 6 months. I would say, keep writing! Even if you cut down to three days a week. You make me laugh – you make a lot of people laugh. And as I’ve said your point of view is valuable.

    And maybe like Erica said – it’s time to start a book. 🙂

    But whatever you decide, wherever you write – I will follow.

  8. Heather says:

    Noooooo! I love hearing your poo stories and the every day events. I was up at 1 am reading one of your posts once and I was laughing so hard that my husband shot up out bed thinking that I was crying! If you decide to go, just know that you will be dearly missed.

  9. Tiffany says:

    I’d miss you.
    I have been taking a break. I think it must have something to do with the season. But I wanted you to know that I enjoy “keeping up” with you.
    You funny.

  10. Kristy says:

    I’d miss your blog if you stopped writing it. Then again, I know you’ve got enough on your plate without stressing about whether you’re blogging enough or not. Course, this is coming from someone who’s about as inconsistent/infrequent a blogger as they come, so…ya know, not the best influence.

  11. Jennifer says:

    No! Don’t GO! I need you! I need to hear about dogs and poo and the backyard, and your enthusiam for dealing with your boys. It keeps me sane.

  12. jillsmo says:

    Wait. You talk about dogs and poop? I really need to dig deeper here.

    Blogging is a hell of a lot of work, isn’t it? For a while there I was really hyping myself on Twitter and got a bunch of followers in a short time, but then when you take a break from that it’s not like the momentum continues without you. I don’t get how people get thousands of followers and fans. Unless you’re Allie Brosh. That makes perfect sense to me.

    I have no point, either. My blog, my tweets, even my comments: No point! What would you tell me if I were asking these same questions?

  13. I’d miss you if you stopped blogging. I like that you keep it real. You aren’t one of those parents that EVERYTHING is a blessing. You’re not afraid to be one of the parents who says, “You know what? Sometimes autism sucks.”

  14. Bethie says:

    I’m a fairly new follower, but I read every day and enjoy the stories of your life.

    Oh, and the poop stories. The poop is what keeps me coming back.

    Sometimes, pointlessness is the whole point. 🙂

  15. incognitomom says:

    I would miss you and this blog. I’d miss hearing you put your comic spin on all the stuff that is your real life. I have mostly given up blogging because honestly I can’t do what you do. I’m not that funny or that creative and I am far too whiny. But you lady, have a knack for telling it like it is and making us laugh. Who cares if you’re a big time mommy blogger? If you enjoy writing this blog and you get something out of it then keep on keeping on.

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