April 28, 2009 by Marj Hatzell
In addition to my now-twenty-two-pound weight gain, I’m exhausted.
As in, I sleep for nine to ten hours a night, take a two hour nap and feel like I can sleept for ten more hours straight. I never feel well-rested. I never feel like I’ve fully woken up. I pretty much want to sleep all the time. ALL DAY LONG. Like, don’t call me, mmkay? I’ve got the ringers off.
I am exercising seven days a week. I’m eating veggies and fruit galore. I have salads every day at lunch. I’m grilling lean meats and eating meatless meals at least three days a week. Heck, I even cut out most of my tea consumption. I’m back to drinking over sixty-four ounces of water a day. I should feel great! This is the way I lived for years. So why do I feel like total crap? No really, feel me. I feel like crap. Go on. Try it. I’ll wait.
Don’t you dare tell me it’s muscle weight. The fact that pants I wore TWO WEEKS AGO won’t fit over my tummy is kinda pissing me off. I can’t button them. I’m pretty much wearing only elastic waist bands, yoga pants and skirts.
People. I’m working out for forty minutes to an hour every single day. I am doing One Hundred Situps a night. WHY THE H-E-DOUBLE-HOCKEY-STICKS AM I STILL GAINING??????
Time for a pee test?
It’s time for something. Monday morning I’m off to the doc. I’m getting iron, calcium, hormones and CBC checked. If you can think of anything else I need (oh yeah, thyroid, too!) let me know. I was prediabetic before, perhaps that is an issue. I just don’t know. I normally have more energy than the energizer bunny. This is strange territory for me.And those of you who just saw me recently and think I still have the energy of an energizer bunny need to see me when I’m feeling like myself. It’ll give you a headache. That is, I’ll give you a headache. I’m good at that. No need to thank me, I do it because I care.
I know, I still look ok. I’m still smaller than the average woman. But this ain’t me. This ain’t the way I am accustomed to living. I just don’t feel like me. I feel like…I dunno.