October 3, 2007 by Marj Hatzell
Did you ever have a day when you had a list of about twenty things you SHOULD do and just can’t seem to get them done?
Yeah, that’s today. I should be at the gym. I should be rebooting the laundry. I should be loading the dishes and running the dishwasher. I should be shopping for wheat-free food (long story short – we’re going wheat-free for Bugaboo again. We’ve got to do something about the stomach problems and the hives!). I should be going to the gym to work out. I should get in the shower since I never made it in yesterday (because I spent my usual shower time at the vet with the gimpy dog). I should be working on my paperwork pile. I should be brushing the dog. I should be thinking about what we are having for dinner. I should be making beds and doing room rescues.
Honestly I’ve been sitting here staring into space. I could not think of an idea of what to blog. I cannot even decide if I am having a second cup of tea or switching to water. My brain is mush.
I’ve decided that I will be spontaneous today. I will take it as it comes. This is not something DG usually does, in fact, it is far out of my comfort zone. I am about about the list, the routine, sticking to the schedule and doing what I am supposed to do. Today? I’m gonna do what I wanna do when I wanna do it. Why? Because I can. How many days do I actually get to stay in my pajamas? How many days do I get to lounge on the couch and watch a movie? NONE, that’s how many. I am tempted to shower, make a bowl of popcorn and sit and watch bad romances or tweener films. Yes, at 10 am. Because I can.
Tomorrow? Tomorrow is the day I have to stick to the schedule and get all kinds of crazy things done.
(ETA: As soon as I finished this post the phone rang and it was another autism mom that I meet every now and again for coffee. She asked me to lunch, so it was just the kick in the pants I needed. I’ve showered, started laundry, picked up the house, made beds, took care of the dog and am about to go up to Panera to read a book until she gets there. Funny how friends can motivate you. Know what I’ve learned? I hate being alone. As long as I am around people I am fine. I really do not like to be alone for any length of time. Being along puts me in a funk. I miss my kids. I miss my husband. I miss my friends. I mean, I’ll take an hour a day for a shower and a nap but that is all I need. Since this is the first time in seven years that I am alone during the day I just don’t what to do with myself. I’ll get used to it eventually, right?)