August 5, 2013 by The Domestic Goddess
*tap, tap, tap* Is this thing on? Hi, I’m DG and I’ve been ignoring my blog for three weeks now…
The only excuse I’ve got is, “Life. It happens, as it turns out.”
Anywho, yesterday we dropped Bug Boy off at camp for a week. He’s gone to day camps a plenty the past few years. This one is different because it’s his first stint ever at a sleep-away camp. As in, overnight, without us, in the woods, doing campy things like hiking, canoeing, fishing, archery, swimming and the like. He was very excited to go. We were very excited for him to go. But this isn’t any ordinary camp. We picked this one specifically because we had an ulterior motive.
It’s specifically for kids who need some help with social skills.
A few months ago, Bug Boy started noticing he was “different.” He started to notice that he dressed differently and wanted things that were more like other kids. He noticed he was doing things younger kids did and started distancing himself from the younger boys in our neighborhood. He started saying, “Hang out” instead of “play” with his friends. He practiced a “hang out” stance and came up with his own (seemingly arbitrary) list of things he would do when he “hung out” with these friends. And so on. And then he started having questions about his own neurology.
Now, we’ve always been COMPLETELY OPEN with Bug Boy. He knows everything about every diagnosis. We always felt he had nothing to hide and we’ve always kept open dialog. We’ve always stressed that his autism/OCD/ADHD wasn’t a big deal, it was just a part of who he is, like having red hair or an elbow. It was just a reason for things that he struggled with, like social skills, making friends, loud noises, tags in his clothes, etc, but NEVER an excuse for behavior. He’s been fine with that. But middle school is a cruel, cruel beast and we all know how alienating it can be to be “different” at that age. I know because I went through it. There were days I wanted to QUIT ALL THE THINGS and never leave the house. I hated being “a spaz” and “being a klutz” and “crying all the time” and “washing my hands and feet too much.” I didn’t want to be different. And yet I was. And back then? Well, ain’t nobody got time for that! I was pretty much told to suck it up. The thing is when you don’t deal with that stuff as a kid? It just compounds as an adult. Which means you have to deal with it yourself. It takes years away from your life.
We’re dealing with it now with Bug Boy. He wants to QUIT ALL THE THINGS and hide in the house and never invite anyone over and I have to persuade him to go to the pool to hang out with his BEST BUDDIES, the ones he talks about all the time. See, we’re lucky in that there’s a group of “future engineers” that go to his school in his particular grade. There are probably ten or twelve of them and they’re all into the same things but they often struggle socially so all of their parents (myself included) have difficulty encouraging them to hang out together, even though that’s what they really want to do. Or they hang out and play video games the whole time. Which isn’t a bad thing, necessarily. It’s just…well, there isn’t much, um, socialization. It’s overwhelming for them sometimes.
So. This camp.
Back in the spring, when we started exploring what to do for the summer, I came across this camp. I mentioned it to Bug Boy. His eyes lit up. He knew this wasn’t for “typical” kids. He knew there would be kids “like him”. And his exact words were, “I want to go to THIS camp. I want to go to a camp where I can meet more kids like me.” And so we chose this camp. At his request. Because he’ll have the support he needs to navigate camp and hopefully connect socially. I wish I signed him up for two weeks instead of one but since it is his FIRST SLEEP AWAY CAMP EVER we went with one week. Who knows what next year will bring?
As we packed yesterday morning, he suddenly piped up, “Mom. I really, REALLY hope there’s someone there just like me.” It just about broke my heart. He’s feeling so different. It’s so hard when you are this age and feel like you stick out like a sore thumb. I know because I went through it, too. All the things your parents think make you special make you feel like you have a flashing sign on your forehead that says, “LOSER!” Like everyone is looking at you and whispering behind your back. Like you’re always going to have that awful pimple right at the end of your nose. I assured him that he was a unique, wonderful kid and he was going to meet someone that had many of the same interests but no one is EXACTLY like you. You just decide that you like things about people and want to hang out with them. And that there were CERTAINLY going to be more kids with autism/OCD/ADHD and the like that liked Pokemon or Star Wars or Minecraft. I’m not sure he bought it but he seemed relieved.
We arrived at the camp yesterday, helped him set up his bunk and then gave hugs and said good bye. As we turned to leave, a boy walked over and said, “Hi! I’m Lee. You must be Bug Boy. I heard you like Star Wars.”
And a choir of angels sang, and unicorns and butterflies flew around the room and I died from shock and when I came back to life again, they were smiling and chatting and, “ZOMG MINECRAFT? ME, TOO!!!”
I’m thinking he’s going to have a great week.